This, what I’m feeling right now as I’m writing today’s post, is the moment I knew would come when I decided on doing the Christmas Calendar. I’m currently feeling like I should write an elaborate “process post”, while also not wanting to use my energy and focus on doing that.
There is a certain pull to turn my focus inwards, a “should”, to become aware of what’s there, but it also feels like effort to do so. I’m asking myself “why should I? Why do I have to figure out what’s going on? Can’t I just execute according to what feels good to do?”
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Oh, so sneaky. Do you see what I’m doing? I’m talking about breaking the pattern, but not actually doing it.
Here is what I really want for today’s post. I want to share something.
Old me is done. Not as in a fine line in the sand, it’s a process. Nonetheless, you can expect change. My webpage is being remade. My offers are changing. Prices are changing. Everything is changing. I keep talking about my dreams and how badly I want the, yet I’m operating on a level that is not compatible with that life, so… Shit has to change.
Gunhild Archer, counselor 